I took an hour or so this morning to make a study plan for the week to come, to be sure that whatever studying I did on this Saturday would be constructive. I planned to take a study break at 2 this afternoon to go to a new knitting circle at church, and I enjoyed a conversation with a friend this morning that shortened my study window a bit, but was worth it.
I opted for putting the bulk of my effort today into my reading for next Thursday’s class. Our professor warned us that this would NOT be an easy read, gave us strategies for reading, and suggested we budget time for two readings of the material this week. I decided, for my first reading, which I naively thought I would complete today (two chapters, no big deal, right?) that I would use his strategy of trying to write one sentence after each paragraph that I read trying to sum up what I’ve just read. I thought in my second reading on Wednesday I’d try a different strategy. He warned us that we wouldn’t understand much of it… how bad can it be, I thought?
I had to take a break after every few paragraphs it was SO HARD. I made it through 9 pages (out of 71 in the first chapter) in the first two and a half to three hours I gave to it. I gave it another two and a half to three hours after returning from knitting circle and made it to page 26.
There is NO WAY in heck I’m reading this material twice this week and getting all the other work I need to get done done. It will have to suffice that I am reading it thoughtfully and carefully once. I’ll be lucky if I get through both chapters by Thursday.
And I have to give a thirty minute lecture in my Bonhoeffer class a week from this coming Monday… need to give that time too…
But the sun is setting and I’m going to let the sabbath begin. And I will read whatever I can this week, even if my best laid plans are thwarted.
I’m sighing because my progress was so slow and I wasn’t even fighting the sort of scattered mind I usually fight. I’m sighing because it is so tempting to scrap the sabbath and read tomorrow. I’m sighing because dang… this is hard.
But I talked to a friend in parish ministry today and… that might be harder. Yeah. Definitely harder.
Gonna make dinner now (hear that friends- second week in a row I’m making dinner… making history…)