I was super frustrated as yesterday drew to a close, as the last post indicates. I probably fell asleep around nine or nine-thirty. Unable to accomplish any more, uncertain I would be able to accomplish anymore. I did realize a few possible angles for expanding the paper underway before going to bed, but hoped more would come together as I slept. I tried to be more specific in my praying “After a full night’s sleep may the rest of this paper come together”. Well, to repeat a pattern, three hours after falling asleep, I was wide awake, with the sense that I might be able to finish the paper afterall. Just as I did two nights ago, I tried to go back to sleep. I put the overhead fan on as I was a bit hot and thought that may have been what awakened me. I took deep breaths. I assured myself these ideas would be there in the morning. I let my mind wander to waking dreams of baby preparations and birth and half an hour later I was still wide awake and ready to write.
Kev is sleeping on an air mattress in the nursery-to-be as he has been succumbing to a cold and doesn’t want to give it to me, so I went and got the computer, got back in bed, and started plugging away at it. And I pulled together what I think is a fairly complete, and relatively decent, full draft, with about two hours of additional work.
When I finished the draft and then transferred it to the program in which I’ll do my final revisions and formatting, it turned out to be only 17 pages (it is supposed to be 20-25), and this is with a slightly larger font than is standard (12 point, but the font itself is larger). This concerned me because its word length was nearly identical to the Bonhoeffer paper I drafted Saturday which I thought was going to format to nearly 25 pages. So then I went and changed the spacing on the Bonhoeffer paper and indeed… crap, 17 pages. And that paper is supposed to be 25 pages.
I NEVER have this problem. I always write too much and agonize over cutting words. I’m not even sure what one does in this situation. I do need to yet add an intro and conclusion to my Bonhoeffer paper which will help some, but it won’t add 8 pages. And obviously in my revisions I can liberally add words willy-nilly which could be a liberating experience.
But I have the next two to three days to revise these papers and I’ll figure something out, right? (And technically I could have longer than that, but I don’t want to allow myself longer that that.) And if I turn in papers that are shorter than recommended, so long as I feel the argument is as complete as can be in both papers, so be it. Let the chips fall where they may, I suppose.
So do I get to celebrate, in these wee hours, having three drafts written even if two of them are too short???