I was slowly surfacing from a very strange dream only to realize the sun was way brighter than it should be if I were waking up in the two hour window I intended for baby care, etc. Caroline was in the living room with daddy so I could get some more sleep, and get more sleep I did. My anxiety started to creep up and then I thought this:
“You are not expected anywhere at any particular time today. Your number one job at the moment is caring for baby and self. So long as you study some German today and do some reading, that’s fine. And you will do that. And you’ll get some housework done today and that, too, is fine. And you will do that. So what if the day starts later?”
And I felt better. So simple to do, yet so rarely done… by me, at least.
But I did it today, hooray!