We celebrated Caroline’s first birthday in grand style yesterday. I did little to no school work.
I had given myself permission to violate sabbath this week and next as there is SO much to do and SO little time in which to do it, but I awoke this morning with my body screaming “Violate Sabbath? Rest is EXACTLY what you most need right now.”
I opened up Pages and looked for a creative template on which to map out what needs to get accomplished to see if I could totally rest today. I chose a menu template. And I titled the document “THE LAST PUSH: ON WHAT I’LL BE FEASTING THESE NEXT TWO WEEKS”. Trying to frame this positively. I listed the tasks before me as either “Salads and Starters”, “Entrees”, or “Drinks and Desserts”. And then, rather than pricing them, I set dates and times by them. I treated preliminaries- final reading, wrap up course work, etc.- as salads and starters and the paper writing, revising, and proofing as entrees and preparations for the baby shower I’m co-hosting in two weeks and a few other fun things (like getting my hair done for the first time since August) under drinks and desserts. I realized in doing this that I do need to do some reading today, a fair bit of reading actually, but that’s o.k..
My plan seems workable, assuming that when I review my notes I actually have done enough research to make an argument, in all three cases. I’m fearful that I haven’t. I won’t know until I get started. I’ve budgeted a day (or a part of a day) for reviewing notes and outlining, and two days for writing for each paper. And separate time for revising and then proofing. I am dubious right now that I will be able to get this done. But… this is not the only time I’ve ever felt this way.
Earlier this week I was lacking focus and feeling overwhelmed and I took an hour to read through the blog posts from the last 2 week push of the fall semester last year (before the big long push to bring Caroline into the world). I realized that I was as dubious then as I am now, perhaps more so. I also read that I had WHOLE days of fruitless work that sucked all the confidence right out of me. But… I also read that I achieved my goal precisely- ending on the very day I had planned. And I was reminded of the sheer elation I experienced at that time. So, I can do this.
I have new challenges this year that I didn’t have last year (tutoring students anxiously working on their final papers and grading a stack of long papers and helping to care for a one year old), but… God is good. And this will get done. If I need to take an incomplete I can, but I really don’t want to. I want that elation. I want the break.
So, I’m back here now. I’m going to post my menu and come back and cross things off as they get finished.
And I’ll record this journey.
So next semester, or next year… I’ll see how it was done.
And any cheerleading y’all want to do is welcome! (That is, if you’re still there considering how dead this blog has been!)
I started this post before church. There ended up being a dinner after church to welcome the pastor back from sabbatical. I was at church from 10:30-4. Maybe God wanted me to honor sabbath today. I’ll only be doing a bit of reading and will be shifting the plan around already!
Salads & Starters
Read Farley and Kinast for Clearer Understanding of Theological Reflection – Sunday, 12.6 began to seem like this was unnecessary… read for a few hours… moved on
Review City of God 19, Finish Cary, – Sunday, 12.6, Monday 12.7
Chase Down a Few More References – Monday, 12.7
Chase down even more references– Monday, 12.7
Yes, I’m adding things to be able to cross them off.
Return Library Books – Monday, 12.7
Evaluate Student’s Outline – Monday, 12.7, first thing
Design Slides for Final Teaching For Ministry Presentation – Monday 11-12, 12.7 a colleague in my group offered to do this with me. phew.
Attend Final Constructive Lecture – Monday, 12.7, noon
Caroline’s Doctor’s Appointment -Tuesday, 12.8, 9 a.m.
four shots! most ever! she’s a trooper though! and so big! 30.5 inches! 90th percentile!
Teaching for Ministry Project Meetings – Tuesday, 12.8, 1-3, Wednesday, 12.9, 11-12
Format Handouts for Teaching for Ministry Presentation– Tuesday, 12.8, evening
Write Letter for Teaching for Ministry Presentation- Tuesday, 12.8, evening
well, i delegated that rather than doing it. the formatting took until nearly midnight… off to bed. MUCH to do tomorrow.
Meet with Students – Wednesday as scheduled
only one student scheduled… but i got a panicky request after i had already come home for the day… did a lot of e-mail consulting all afternoon…
Final Augustine Discussion Thursday, 12.6 2-4? cancelled, phew.
Final God and the Other Class – Monday, 12.14, 1-3
i think i might not make this class. sigh. told the prof i might not make it. have his blessing not to. think i won’t.
crossed this off Sunday, 12:50 p.m., IF, by some freak chance, I DON’T need the time for writing, revising, proofing, grading… I need it for sleeping. I believe this will be the ONLY class I’ve missed all semester. Not bad friends. Not bad.
Read for that class? – God willing
not gonna happen so might as well cross it off. i REALLY hope i make time to read the rest of that book soon. for lots of reasons…
Have coffee/tea with a friend coming to visit my school- Friday 12.12 8:15 a.m.
Review God and Other Notes and Make Detailed Paper Outline – Monday 12.7, afternoon
update Tuesday noon– i have my thesis. i have a rough outline. working on the details.
update Tuesday 6:00 p.m.- more detailed outline in place, started color coding my notes, have generated a source list (color coded), have started attaching notes to different parts of the outline… still a ways to go… but underway… still haven’t written… but this should make writing easier… theoretically
update Wednesday evening- between a budding sinus infection in me making me noisy (and miserable- so hard for me to sleep when congested…) and therefore waking caroline up repeatedly… i was up most of the night. i finished the color coding and not organizing, slept for a few hours this morning… went to meetings on campus… came home and tried to write…
Write God and Other Paper – Tuesday-Wednesday 12.8 and 12.9, Friday 12.11- all day.
Wednesday evening update- the good news- I have the first two points of my outline drafted. the bad news- the bulk of my argument is in the remaining points of my outline. The minor stuff is all I have written. And I may have to axe a lot of what I wrote. But I’m glad I have something. I’m trying to be centered and not freak about going into Thursday without a complete draft. Trying. Need to sleep to kick this sinus infection. And it will just have to get done on Friday. That’s all there is to it. Sigh.
Saturday early morning (1 a.m.!) update- I finished a 29 page (supposed to be 25-30 and I still need a conclusion!) draft! Woohoo! And my Augustine prof offered to review my draft and give me feedback this weekend (even though it is a paper for another class, not for his class, but because i am dealing with augustine he can likely be helpful! what a relief! this should be a huge help.) So I’ve sent the draft off to him for feedback. And tomorrow I’ll move on to other things. Like… the paper for my Augustine class.
Send God and Other Paper to Augustine Prof for Review- Friday, 12.11
Revise God and Other Paper – Monday, 12.14, a.m.
monday, 12.14, 8:00 P.M., i have a quite polished paper ready to go. i could send it. but i worked on it ALL DAY and think i should review once more with fresh eyes in the morning… so almost done.
Proof God and Other Paper – Monday, 12.14
SUBMITTED, Just a few minutes late, THIS MORNING, Tuesday, 12.15!!!!!!!!!!
Review Augustine Notes and Make Detailed Paper Outline – Saturday, 12.12, Sunday, 12.13
Notes reviewed. Outline/Thesis? Um, no. Please God do your thing while I sleep, thanks.
accomplished by midday Sunday! started to come together in the head around 3 a.m… too tired to even lean over, grab a notebook and take some notes, trusted it would be there when i was ready to get up… IT WAS! tempted to now sort my notes into the outline, but… first some significant last work on my teaching for ministry paper must be done.
Write Augustine Paper – Tuesday, 12.15 or Wednesday, 12.16
notes sorted into outline… ready to go… please let it come FAST
update Thursday, 12.17, after a few hours of sleep, i have a 30 page draft on which i worked, with breaks, from 9 a.m. until 4 a.m.. of course i hate it now. can’t stand to look at it. and yet keeping thinking about it. bad combination. i think, for the sake of actually being able to meaningfully revise it that i have to wait until tomorrow. so i’ll rest and do drinks and desserts today. maybe literally : )
Revise Augustine Paper – Wednesday, 12.16, Thursday 12.17
Proof Augustine Paper – Thursday, 12.17
9:00 P.M. Friday evening DONE, DONE, DONE! Felt good about it this morning, less so tonight… but… friends, DONE.
Teaching for Ministry Presentation- Thursday, 12.10, 11-1
Write Wrap-Up Teaching for Ministry Paper – Thursday, 12.10, every window
phew. one out of three drafts done. on the day i hoped to have it done, even. that said it is TWICE as long as it is supposed to be. and was written in a fairly casual, stream of consciousness fashion. the revisions are going to be demanding. but… it is a draft. and it, in crude form, meets the requirements of the assignment if not the highest expectations. and… if i could crank out a 14 page paper in approximately 6 hours… these 25 pagers, which are harder, admittedly, not due to length but to the carefulness with which I want to make the arguments, they can come too, in the minimal time that remains for them.
Revise Wrap-Up Teaching for Ministry Paper – Saturday, 12.12
still need to trim more out of it and create a one page prospectus for a class design to take text out of the main paper, but too tired to finish tonight.
Proof Wrap-Up Teaching for Ministry Paper- Sunday 12.13
e-mailed around 8 p.m. Sunday evening. a little over 12 hours early. ONE CLASS DONE!
Grade Constructive Papers – every evening 12.11-12.15
Sunday, 12.13 update- 2 papers graded, 12 to go. at about 20 pages each… sigh
Monday, 12.14, 12:01 a.m.- 3 papers graded and sent to prof, 1 and 3/4 more done- seeing lots of progress, really gratifying, but really time consuming… still don’t have a paper from one student. supposed to take 10 pts per day late off. she had an extension until saturday morning at 9 and has made NO contact with us to ask for more time… she can’t afford a starting grade of 80. So frustrating. I’ve invested a lot of time in her.
Monday, 12.14, 10:45 P.M. Shipped another 3 off to the prof earlier this evening, got two more done after that. Still have no paper from that one student. I’m frustrated with her, but also grateful, this means only 13 20ish pagers to grade. And I’ve done 8! So I’ll definitely get this done tomorrow. But man… almost an hour per paper!
Tuesday, 12.15 4:45 P.M. DONE! DONE! DIGGITY DONE! AND I got all the grades entered on-line. Some might get tweaked after our meeting tomorrow, but… friends, I NEVER thought I’d be done with the grading for this semester. And I’m DONE.
I’M NOT DONE! Boo hoo… just received that paper I was waiting for last night. Sigh.
interesting developments with that late paper, prob can’t talk about it… grading on hold.
DON’T HAVE TO FINISH GRADING THAT PAPER! Just have to wait to send papers back!
Constructive Grading Meeting – Wednesday, 12.16 3:15 p.m.
must figure and enter participation grades, attendance grades, etc. on-line BEFORE that meeting
Desserts & Drinks
Watch the Biggest Loser Season Finale- Tuesday, 12.8, evening
while working, i promise. SO WORTH IT! FRIENDS, EVEN IF YOU DON’T WATCH THE WHOLE SEASON THE FINALE IS INSPIRING TO SEE! WATCH THE NEXT ONE IN MAY!
Place Tentative Order with Caterer for Shower – Wednesday, 12.9 missed the manager yesterday and she’s off monday and tuesday! shoot!
Share Quote with Mom of Mom to Be, Make Any Adjustments Needed – a.s.a.p.
Place Official Order with Caterer – Monday, 12.14
mom of mom-to-be took care of this, phew!
Prepare Present and Shower Activity for the Parents to Be – Thursday, 12.17
Hair Appointment – Thursday, 12.17
ah… cut and color… much better… ended up counseling my hairstylist but got a free eyebrow waxing and a discounted do, i’ll take it!
Bake – Friday, 12.18 a.m.
made chocolate peanut butter balls for the shower, first time ever, think they turned out GREAT. thanks for the recipe, kelly! i needed a break after the all nighter. back to work tomorrow.
Fellowship Colloquy Gathering – Friday, 12.18, 2-4
Host Shower – Saturday, 12.19
(Christmas prep somewhere in those last few days too…)