… and I’m close… as you might be able to tell from the frequently updated post below… but… I have one more BIG paper to write.
I have a clear and detailed outline, a sentence at least for each move I want to make.
I cut and pasted notes into that outline last night. There are few last notes I realized this morning that I’ve yet to review. I might try to do that right now; or I might just do that if I have time after drafting and if it seems the argument is particularly weak at any point.
Heading to school as soon as possible. Holing up in a carrel. And typing like mad. Hope to have a draft by my grading meeting at 4:00 (it was pushed later, thanks be to God.)
So this semester that seemed like it would never end… really is going to end. I will revise and proof whatever I write today tomorrow. I will turn it in no later than Friday. And, I have a bit of reading to do for the fellowship colloquy gathering on Friday, but once this paper and that reading and the meeting this afternoon are don. I’m done.
LOTS to be done on the drinks and desserts end of things, but I’m eager for that. My thoughts are more and more on Christmas and less and less on school. This is a sign that the end is near!
(oh, and what I’m celebrating the most?! i have managed to navigate the end of a semester which began with much anxiety and insecurity- feelings that lingered for quite some time- with relatively little anxiety and insecurity! thanks be to God! partially because i was able read through last year’s blog entries I realized that there would inevitably be non-productive days in a time period when i thought i couldn’t afford non-productive days, but that such days are a part of my process. when i felt such a day coming on, i didn’t fight it. i did what i could, trying to take baby steps towards big goals, or just enjoying the company of family and colleagues, and didn’t beat myself up. i let myself write even when it seemed I was writing crap and let myself truly revise. and i let someone i respect review something i thought was crap to give me help when i needed it most. and i didn’t have an ounce of anxiety about the grading. i just did it. now yes, at the beginning of these 2 weeks I was doubtful I’d get through everything. there was anxiety there, but i made the plan and that helped reduce the anxiety. but when the plan got thrown of… i just adjusted without much angst. THANKS BE TO GOD!)