There’s a pastor in this presbytery whose path has been crossing mine for… well over a decade…
We got the chance to talk at the last presbytery meeting (when we helped pass 10-A- hooray!) and I filled her in on my dissertation idea, and exam prep plans, etc. And… she’s just that kind of person… I told her about the insecurity that creeps up, regularly, how frequently I. just. don’t. feel. like. a. scholar. And don’t think I ever will.
And she said “Really? Because I feel so much energy coming from you as you talk about your dissertation idea and your exam prep. I couldn’t muster an ounce of energy for tasks like that, but you are full of energy for all of it. I think that says a lot.”
And I keep thinking about that. She focused my attention on what I have- energy. It is rather like my advisor’s wife telling me I was determined at the beginning of the year. Energy and determination… those are two HUGE things to have… sure there’s lots I don’t have… but with energy and determination… I’ve got this.
Focus on what you have, Sarah. Focus on what you have.