That’s the sound of me hitting a wall.
Hit a wall. On day four of week one.
Just couldn’t get up at 5 for my run this morning.
And then never left the house.
It wasn’t a total waste of a day. I read a lot of Calvin and re-read some Serene Jones. I made an appt with a prof for tomorrow. And I got a nap. Oh, and some good snuggles with Caroline and Alistair, the baby Kev cares for four days a week.
I don’t know if I need to change something in my plan because I didn’t even manage to make it through a full week without crashing. I guess I’ll give this plan one more week and if I hit another wall… I’ll have to build some more time for rest into the plan. Somehow.
I’ve really been enjoying week one. I’ve liked being methodical and disciplined. The timer goes off after 55 minutes and I walk upstairs, relieve myself, get some water, smile at a familiar face, and then shift to another thinker. I’ve not been making HUGE progress with any one thinker on any given day, but I’ve been chipping away at several which is gratifying and I’ve been able to see points of comparison emerging in real time this way.
It’s just hard to know if I’m making enough progress, if this pace is what is needed to get through the bulk of the reading/re-reading needed for these questions in two weeks. But… on the bright side, if there is still more to read come the end of these two weeks (and of course there likely will be), there will be nothing I haven’t at least read some of (or likely a fair bit of after several hour goes at it) AND I have a catch-up week scheduled three weeks hence… so… breathe.
Trying to listen to my body. And trust.
And have you noticed I’m blogging again? Blogging the mundane, but… I’m so much less social now… that I’m feeling the urge to reach out. It makes me wonder about the degree of isolation I was feeling in ministry when I was blogging almost daily. Of course I was social then… but… constrained in my sociality. Maybe these three years of coursework have been a relatively less isolated time for me. I’ve processed on drives to or from campus with friends, and in the lounge, and in the library… But this week… just me and my books… and occasional brief chats… Oh, and e-mail check-ins with a marvelous colleague here who has agreed to be an accountability buddy for the summer. That’s great. Anyhow… it is good to be back to the blog. Maybe I’ll even find some time to read a few blogs… Not sure.