I was charged to remember this and to write it down. Because some days I will seriously wonder…
And, in fact, if I remember why I said yes… it might help me to grumble a little bit less when I am getting EXACTLY what I signed up for.
I ultimately accepted this call because it seemed more challenging, stimulating, and invigorating that the other opportunity available to me. I accepted this call because energy coursed through me every time I talked with members of the committee. I accepted this call because the people on the search committee shared bits of their hearts with me– their pain and their faith– and I fell in love with them. I accepted this call because it puts me in a good location for future pursuits in bi-vocationality. I accepted this call because I was promised a co-pastor. I accepted this call because it seemed WAY riskier than my alternative– and somehow, it seemed, God’s call was on the side of risk rather than stability or comfort.
Two months in I have to say that it is immensely challenging.
But that’s exactly what I wanted.
And I am still falling in love with the people.
And that’s exactly what I need.